Friday, September 23, 2011

Hope is the thing with feathers. -Emily Dickenson

I know, I know - I haven't updated in forever. But I have been booked down to minutes!
So much has happened that I don't even know if I'll be able to recall everything, so I'm just going to go with thinking that what I remember is all the more important/interesting parts :D

Butterflies are beautiful... They still don't cease to give me hope and a smile to my face. In whatever situation I'm in, as soon as a butterfly flutters by (as irrational as that sounds), I think about how things will turn out alright. "Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end." -Unknown

That quote speaks the truth. That quote is one of my mottos. That quote drives me, gives me inspiration, and reminds me that will power, perseverance, and hope (along with a sprinkle of optimism) never does any harm.

Going off of that, I have finally started something which I have always wanted to do, but never go the chance to. I started recording all the quotes that I find meaningful, enlightening, or humorous into a composition book. This compilation will be full at one point in my life - all 200 pages of it! I have always loved quotes and reading through my pages after pages of quotes reminds me why I live my life the way I do and why I am the person that I am - why I choose to choose how I do.

I have been asked by several friends to write their peer/friend letter of recommendation for their brag packet for the college letter of recommendation process. I've finished Sumesh's and Kimia's, started on Jennifer's and Jeffrey's, and still have to get a move on Llewellyn's! Actually, I'm quite flattered that of all people they could have gone to they came to me.

I have also been freaking out a bit over the whole college application/choice process. Yet again. My oh my, it's coming up fast! I'm excited, terrified, and unsure all at once. I'm trying to find, choose, and narrow down my choices of colleges. So many factors! It's been helpful talking to some friends about it though; they talked some of the anxiety right out of me.

My friends are important to me, and so is my family. They are people who have impacted my life in ways more than anybody might understand. If you do comprehend this feeling and think yours parallel mine, then I am happy for you and am letting you know to cherish it because it's the most valuable aspect of any life.

I love my best friend and big brother, Jeffrey Hsu. He has been with me through thick and thin. He's the first to laugh and exclaim "Yay!" at my failures. He's the first to point out flaws he sees. But it's never cruel, mean, awkward, or difficult; it's simply an understanding we've grown to have. We talk about anything and everything, with or without actually uttering a single word. I know I say these things about him all the time, but that's because that's what it is all the time. I'm not sure if it was possible, but I feel like the two of us have gotten even closer than we were... Oh! Also, I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before, but we got our matching silver rings, for our 10-yr friendaversary [:

He and I actually filled out surveys for our school's yearbook about our best friends. I guess we'll just have to wait until the end of the year to see if we'll actually be featured, though.

I have also started talking a lot with Stephen. He's the type of guy who likes to mess with people, get a reaction out of them, so there are lots of people who complain about him or don't like him. From my perspective, though, he's really not all that bad. In fact, he's pretty funny and interesting to talk to. He, too, has been quoted in my composition book: "When you're mad at the world, laugh."

I have also been spending a lot of time with my friend, Neda. We started talking a long time ago, but never had the chance, or rather took the chance, to get close, but I see that changing already this year. We have the last class of the day every day with one another. We hang out after school. We talk at lunch. Sometimes she joins me by the tennis courts on the days I have a match. Every once in a while we'll chat over Facebook or text, but that's not the same as in person. (This isn't just with her. Call me old school or whatever you'd like, but I'm still the girl who prefers phone calls to texts; and I prefer talking face to face even more than that). It's hard to find someone who truly listens and cares like Neda; she is definitely one of the sweetest, most honest, and easiest-to-talk-to people I have ever encountered. I am completely grateful for our friendship and hope we continue to get closer as the school year progresses.

Tennis has been fun; I've gotten a bit closer with the girls on Varsity tennis. Sometimes, I still feel out of place on the team, but our bonding time at practices, matches, and get-togethers like Souplantation dinners definitely get us feeling closer.

I get called busy very often and I'll admit to it, but I'd have it no other way. These extracurriculars are what keep me sane (or insane, but happy). Speech and Debate still has lots of my love; and, now, even more of my time. Being IE captain feels so rewarding, being able to listen to my peers' ideas and work and sharing our feedback. This past week, I've had several special requests to work on their piece with me; I won't lie, that made me feel quite loved/special/important. HOSA was quite successful in our club recruitment and the Jamba Juice fundraiser I set up sold pretty well. Psychology club has been planning out our first meeting's activities, and I look forward to when we start our general meetings, starting next Friday. I signed up for Film Club and Sign Language Club just to see where that goes and how it turns out, along with Key Club and NHS - definitely!

Yesterday, I met my little buddy! :D At my school, the juniors and seniors (and a couple sophomores) can sign up to be paired up with a new 7th grader, to be their friend, mentor, whatever you want really. I think it's a great thing that our school does (despite some flaws).

Today, I passed my driving test! Woot. Licensed! [:

Tomorrow, I wake up early to head to a Speech and Debate tournament. But what's the difference this time? I'm going to be JUDGING!! :D I'm excited! It's the Novice Tournament and I cannot compete in that, but I'm looking forward to judging their rounds (it looks like I have been entered in the pool to judge for IE's. Perfect.)

I don't know if I'm leaving out anything all too important right now, so I guess I'm going to log off and head to bed soon. Time's a tickin' and tomorrow's a comin'.

But before I leave, here are some artists/songs I have been listening to:
Skylar Grey - Invisible
Demi Levato - Skyscraper
Selena Gomez - Who Says
Christina Grimmie - Above All That is Random 4
Foster the People - Pumped Up Kicks
and lots and lots of songs from P!nk

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